I am feeling really down today, no real reason, just am. I finally made an appointment with a phasistian for tomarrow afternoon, so maybe I will be able to get this under control soon. I am so depressed, and it just seems like my husband is just dragging me down further. He says he is just worried about me because I am forgetting important stuff, and he wants me to feel better. (I wouldn't be so stressed out all the time and forgetting things if he would just be "normal"!) Then he adds I want the old Becky back. Well goody for you! What about what I want? Anti-depressants are not going to solve everything! He says I don't make him feel welcome in his own home. He says I make him feel like I am happier when he is not home. But yet when he is home he doesn't do anything to make me feel good unless he wants sex. I just am so frustrated!
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