My backstory and reasons for depression are on my profile.
I feel as though I keep so busy so I don't have to think about any of this. I haven't been happy in my current city for a long time, and I sit and research another city to move to, because it's so much cheaper. I also try to take weekend trips to escape, because I'm just over it all. I also hate that everywhere I look, there are memories of my deceased fiance. It's a reminder of what I lost.
I've been having issues with my aunt recently, who helps with my daughter. Despite me picking up groceries, taking her to dinner, or doing household chores to show appreciation; I'm told that I either picked up the wrong item or it's not as good as the item she buys. Makes me feel worthless, and I think she's a controlling person.
I know I have been a lot quieter at work, and I try to avoid small talk. I just don't have the energy or happiness to engage with people. I want to focus on work and just leave for the day. I even asked to move desks so I could have a quieter workspace.
Lately, I just feel it's always something. I'm always waiting for the other shoe to fall. I just feel like I have been putting on a facade to mask these feelings. I don't think my current boyfriend realizes the extent of my depression, and I don't want to drag him down.
Can anyone relate?
Hope y’all are all having a wonderful day. To begin, I joined this Group because none of my friends or family understand and it’s killing me. I am 23, I have had fibromyalgia for about 8 years or so. It’s been really severe the past 5 years. I just found out 2 weeks ago I have FM. There’s no cure for it and the muscular pain is at a level 8-10 every second of every day. I’ve done all...
I have to work again tonight. I'm worried about how I'm going to function. For some reason I just can't focus on only working. I can't fully pay attention. I get triggered so easily. I'm also really sensitive to things. It's hard to keep it together.How do you guys function at work when things are really bad?