I have struggled with anxiety and depression for years. I am finding it so hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I have tried counselling with 4 different therapists, tried different medications, done everything in my power to help myself but nothing seems to work and I feel so hopeless. I am 23 and nothing excites me about life, I am unable to relax or sleep. Everyone keeps telling me things will get better eventually but I just don’t see how. I feel so weak mentally. I feel like I am going to be unhappy for the rest of my life. I have recently got broken up with which has made everything a lot worse for me, I can’t stop blaming myself for the break-up and feel more lonely than I have ever felt. My partner was one of the only sources of happiness in my life, I am finding so hard to deal with the break-up. I keep thinking I am never going to be loved by anyone because I have anxiety and I am never gonna feel truely happy. It feels like I am trying to survive everyday. I go to work like a robot then come home and cry in bed until I have to go back the next day. I feel like the only way for this pain to stop is if I am not here anymore but I don’t want my family and friends to suffer.