You don’t have to respond if you don’t want. But it was recommended for me to go here. But lately I’ve been feeling off. I was diagnosed wit depression about 3 years ago (I’m 17) and i would go see my psychiatrist but I didn’t really like it so I stopped going. I felt like I was just reminded of everything. So I after I stopped going I felt better. I kinda forgot about some things and felt happy. 2 years later things happened and everyday I was mad. That’s just how I lived. This year is going better. Stressful but it was good. Until I got a bf. My first serious relationship. It felt nice and I got out more and enjoyed life a bit more. I never leave my house besides to go to school and now I would go out more and laugh more. But then he broke up with me about 2 months ago. At first I didn’t feel anything but as time went on I started getting more sad and I felt my depression coming back. I stopped eating and I lost all motivation and I barely talked. I was like this for about 3 weeks. And during that time period since I was sad, I thought about everything g wrong with my life and the things that happened that caused and still causes me pain. And I realize that I’ve gone through so much and I keep a lot of it inside and when I try to talk about it with my friends they don’t know what to say because I’m the one who helps them not vice versa. Thinking about everything I don’t think I can survive in this life. I’m not going to do anything but I just feel really hopeless. Sorry it’s long.