I came out of the closet with my depression 2 months ago. I see a psychiatrist for meds, a therapist and visit DS often. I feel as if I'm getting worse, I feel people pulling away from me, I'm paranoid and self-conscious. I'm the exact total opposite of what I used to be. I feel scared most of the time. I can't seem to get a grip long enough to take one small step in the right direction. My mind is making me have all sorts of strange thoughts that I wouldn't be having if I wasn't so depressed. At this moment, I feel so lost and I want to cry but there aren't any tears left I'm afraid.
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