I am tired of covering up for him. Tired of pretending that the sun shines out of his Ass. Tired of living this false reality. Tired of being tired.
If I spoke out about him to certain people he told me he would take me to court. I have got photos and videos of his abuse.
Emotional abuse it is along with psychology games thrown in. Then when I react he blames me. I feel like rubbish questioning myself then the cycle continues. I used to have a high tolerance of his rampages.
He used to be in the Royal Marines so his had army training. He doesn't shout he roars for a long time.
My mum is due over here tomorrow, how much this is going to be hard covering up. I want to cancel her coming but she is very happy about it. I don't want to upset her. He even manipulated my mum in to thinking he is a saint.
In public he is loved putting an act on, while with me he takes all his aggression out.
There has never been intimacy at all because he drinks.
I have gone gone from being fully independent to now having to financially depend on him. He loves using this as a form of control.
This is like living a nightmare.
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