okay, i'm going to tell you all something that not too many ppl know about me! One of the reasons that my husband and i became foster parents, and now going through an adoption process is cause i can't have my own kids. I'm very depressed about this and have made a few suicide attempts cause of it! Not being able to have my own children has left a huge void in my heart that i thought would be able to be filled when we became foster parents. I guess it did to a certain degree cause i turned into an instant parent! It seriously depresses me to the point of suicide attempts, withdrawing myself to the point where i hide in my room for 2-3 days at a time and i don't come out accept to go to the bathroom! I want to be able to go through the whole feeling of being pregnant, giving birth and everything else that goes along with it, but i can't and that really brings me down...Soory but i'm crying now so i'll stop this thread, but if anyone has ever been through this, i would appreciate knowing what got you through it...It sickens me that i see so many women out there that have kids(but don't really want them) then i see women that really want children(like myself) but actually can't have kids....IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!
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