First of all I want to say thank you to all of you who responded with kindness to me while I was upset Friday. I actually stayed "down" most of the weekend. Until last night after talking to a friend of mine. I never tell anyone in my real life (except for my ex) about my depression, but last night I told my friend. She acted like she truly wanted to listen. Anyway, the reason I feel better is because while I was saying the stuff about my car and realting that to be being a complete failure etc. I began to realize how silly I sounded. I guess i just needed to hear myself say it out loud. I was letting a couple of bad things happening to me dictate how I felt about myself. As I set there talking I realized that's not how I want to be. As she said, everyone has bad days, it doesn't mean you're a failure. I had decided that I am not going to be depressed anymore ,and not worry about stuff all the time, so from now on I am not going to try not to dwell on stuff so much. Just because some bad stuff happens doesn't make me a failure. Now, I just have to overcome being nervous around her now that she knows stuff about me, but I am glad i told her. It was nice to be able to talk things out. Im glad i have such a good friend.
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