I can't deal with my life right now. I'm so sorry. I'm not trying to make everyone feel sorry for me, but I just need someone to listen. No one in my family seems to want to llend an ear unless I yell at the top of my lungs and show them im hurting. I feel like DS is the only place I can turn to sometimes. I'm 22 years old, and already having back problems to the point I can't hardly move. yes, I have a disability, and that has alot to do with it b/c of my poor posture, but my family thinks its just b/c I have a degenerative disk and I need to be in shape. Now, my blood pressure has been sky high, and they might change my meds...again. I'm on so many different types of meds, it's so frustrating. Just as I thought I was done switching around, I get told they may need to take me off of Effexor XR and put me on something else. I'm scared b/c I don't want to end up in the hospital again. I'm tired of changing. does anyone know something similar to Effexor XR? So, thats one reason my blood pressure is high, but of course, everyone tells me I just need to exercise. How does that make me feel? Fat. and its hard to work out because of my back pain. ugh, its just a viscious cycle. Sometimes I just feel like God hates me. then of course my psychotherapist isnt going to be able to meet with me this week, so I just can tell, this is going to be a week from hell. I'm just so frustrated and feel so alone. I cant tell you how many times my parents have told me "we will be there for you. we can talk about everything that is ging on. we want to support you. we want to help you figure out why u are in pain." Have they....NO! I have tried to fix shit and find stuff out all on my own and I just cant take it anymore. I just want to give up. whats the use? I'm 22 and feel like I have the back of a 35-40 year old. Please help me.