Ive been so angry and frustrated lately. I cant tell you how bad my emotions are right now. For some reason the last month has been horrible. I am extremely depressed. I feel so horrible..so angryso frustrated.It just seems every mental and emotional hindrances is standing in the way. I feel the ADD which saps the energy and motivation out of me. I feel depressed, anxious, sad, angry. When I go to work, I feel even more depressed. I get angry. In the last week its been getting worse. I find myself crying for no reason almost everyday. I cant stand the emotional pain I feel. I know you probably wonder what you can do. I dont know. I think I need help. I feel so many things everyday. I just try and escape with some pain killers when I can. Its horrible. I feel like such a failureIve been failing as a husband..as a father and everything else. I know it sounds like Im beating myself upbut I cant control these emotions. I find it really hard to share my feelingsthis is the only way I can do it.Sleep Apnea is horrible. Doctors tell me I could die because of the oxygen levelsthat stresses me out. I just want to be free. I want to take that medication to help me loose weight (because right now my emotions cant handle the will power). I want to loose weight, loose the sleep apnea, loose all these negative emotions. I dont know how long it will take
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