Slowly, the feeling of worthlessness has been creeping up on me. I'm not happy. But when I look at my life i should be. I always look at the bad things. I just don't know. I'm so confused. I mean I feel like my life is chaos. I feel like I'm disorganized and can't get caught up on anything. I'm unhappy with my body and want to lose weight. I just feel like there's not enough time in the day and money in the bank. I'm always behind..not just on money..on simple things like washing clothes. It seems like I wash and wash and wash and there is always a mound of clothes. I clean and clean and clean and the house is always a mess. I'm behind at work and I'm so unhappy that's its starting to show there too. Family and friends seem like they are backing away from me. I'm just sooooo sick of it. I'm sick of everything. I'm in a hole and I dont' even know where to begin to get out.
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