Hmmmm.....I think if I choose to end my life. I wouldn't feel the need to type a post on here and sign off.

She is struggling. I will send her my best thoughts. Her intensions aren't to annoy us. She needs our help and posting things about her that she may read when she comes back on line will not help her if they are negative

i understand where you are coming, from hell today my post wen off in less than15 minutes

could be a goodbye to her friends, and the people that cared about her. i hope not, but i think i will want to say goodbye

But she must take some responsibility too Scurrie, I have friends that this has made highly stressed, what about the negative effect on them and others on this site?

she needs to know that she is cared about, it is hard for us but she is going through it and she needs to know that she is supported when she gets back.

it is horrible to be left worried and i am hurt that she could not stay on but we dont know there may have been a lull in the board and she waited for a response but didnt get one so felt uncared for, lulls in the board do happen. we can not blame her for hurting

But you are missing my point, what of the pain this has caused others? Do they not deserve the same?

i DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT HER. i DON'T EVEN KNOW OF HER ON HERE. i WAS JUST SAYING THAT IF I MEANT IT AND WAS OFF TO DO IT I WOULDNT BE ON THE NET.

Thing is Ruby... because of the nature of the illness its hard to tell who really means it and who dosnt and we have to treat them all as if they are real. Yes, its exhausting and Im in agreement with you that its unfair but because we never know if they are going to do it or not...we wait.. we watch the boards and wee drive ourselves mad feeling that we failed that person. I have seen them come back on a few hours later like i said, say sorry and people hug them, tell them how much they worried and then its forgotten.. til they do it again. This is why i rarely ever say anything on those types of posts. Call me a coward if you want... but i cant cope with them. And when they come back after doing it...i want to scream at them that they have just put people through hell and back and then... theygo and do it all again! But how do we tell the real crys for help from the rest? We cant... so i guess we just have to keep sitting here waiting and hoping that they havnt really done anything to themsleves :(

Oh f*ck it I give up....

Hugggggggggs to Ruby :) x Its maddening I know.. but what can you do

I tell you what if this pushes my friend over the edge, I will kill myself - there, you have to say nice things to me now....sorry but I am really angry here

maybe she's realised what she's done and gone the hospital. Sometimes you don't think. I'm not excusing it but I know the feeling.

Ruby... i know how you feel. I see exactly where you are coming from but I dont know what to say. This is one hell of a selfish illness thats for sure. I dont know if you can do it but try and do what I do... stand back from it. I have to or it eats into me and I know I would never get better if I kept taking it all in. As for your friend... he/she has you... not a bad place to be :) x

Thanks Duno, just hate it when there seems to be one acceptable rule for some ppl and not for others. I do think it is more benefical if ppl feel that bad to either stay online or phone a crisis line instead, but I am logging off now, I've said my peace, I in no way want to upset Poppy if she comes back so I am just going to shut my mouth for now