im not sure about anyone else? but i was talking with some one about hope.ive always been the person to say well no i wont get my hopes up .so when the worst happens i wont get disappointed when the worst happens .in my case my whole life anytime i had a happy moment some one or something tried to steal it from me .so now im the type to talk myself out of being happy .its like once i realize im having a good time or i feel good .panic sets in ,like omg something bad is going to happen im not use to this make it stop.thats how it works as soon as you get happy something bad happens when you least expect it .so i just expect the worse so when it happens im ready .does anyone else feel this way ? and is it wrong to be this way ? should we have hope?
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