It's with a heavy heart I write this letter. I have been struggling for a long time with this pain. I opened myself to a person special and was hurt by it through my own stupidity. I have battled thoughts of suicide sever depression and anxiety over this whole mess. I cannot stand the pain anymore. If I stay I will do something I might regret. As I regret my actions of a month ago. I have contacted that someone special and asked for her forgiveness and have also said my goodbyes. To you I will also say goodbye from this place. My mind and body are distraught and weak from this constant battle within me. I can't carry on this way anymore. No this is not a suicide note but a note to show you the real me and the horror I try to hide. The horror of rejection...playing the fool...making an ass of myself. I just can't survive here on the DS.I thought I was stronger than I am I have let you and myself down. Please forgive me.
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