I am feeling horrible today...the voices in my head are relentless and so is my despair. I see no light from where I'm sitting and only darkness surrounds me...I try to go outdoors and be around people but it's an impossible task...all i want to do is make it all go away and I keep thinking how a bullet to my head would do just that...what keeps me in this life so far is my care for others but I care nothing for myself and I am merely existing...I am in agony, fighting with myself, looking for a reason to keep going...I think I'm losing and my downward spiral continues...
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