I'm new.... my main two triggers are my autistic twin tweenagers that are behaving in a combative way that is beyond more than I can handle in my current frame of mind. (Hint: frame is cracked, moulding missing chunks of paint and resin, and some staples wriggled out and got lost).
My next trigger is my marriage. I coldly confess I just dont have anything left for that after the exhaustion in the first paragraph.
So I am starting a new slew of meds. I don't see a difference yet, but I hope it's just too soon for the lifechanging results portrayed.
But I feel like a lobotomy of sorts would help. I feel I stopped being a person years ago, and if I could somehow be hypnotized into enduring this role of maid, chauffer, emotional punching bag,
familial servant, unqualified special needs educator, completely ineffective behaviour therapist......... if I could do that with the clinical detachment of a researcher.... maybe I can get thru it. Is there a pill or procedure for that?
Because im about to break from feeling this frustrating debilitating sadness. And my kids will unfortunately witness it until either it or I go away.
I admit, I’ve been struggling a lot lately. Everyday I still manage to take care of stuff. Then fall apart on my own late at night. I have anxiety pretty bad. And I really want to go to a meeting, but it’s really intimidating. I’ll make it through the doors.
Our Living HopeOur Daily Bread It is by [God’s] great mercy that we have been born again, because God raised Jesus Christ from the dead. 1 Peter 1:3The morning after my mother died, I was reading John 6 and talking to God about my sadness. When I came to verse 39, the Lord whispered comfort to my sad heart: “This is the will of God, that I should not lose even one of all those he has...