I have a son who has been really sick most of his life. I had been contemplating taking my own life because I think that he will get better care with someone else. I started to take a large amount of pills. Anything I could find. I then found this site and decided that maybe I was being to hard on myself. That was until this week. My son has been at the hospital three days out of this week. They are talking about doing brain surgery on him. I am all alone with no family and instead of dealing with this I started to take large amounts of pain pills again. I am hoping that if I sleep it will go away and if I don't wake up oh well. In my will I leave my boys to a wonderful family that has two parents and large support system. They would be better there they can handle this better than me. I am disappointed with myself because I always wanted to be a good mom and now I want to quit I failed at this mom thing. We are broke I am divorced, My kid is always sick, I did this and no matter how much I try to fix it I just make things worse. I am running out of options my boys are leaving for the weekend and I need to make some decsions soon.
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