I know that most of us don't know each other. I haven't been a member for very long and I have just been kind of lurking here and reading posts. I have talked to a few but not many. I'm not really asking for help because well, you are there and I am here. I am just so down and feel like I am sinking! I have no support system right now cuz' my best friend of 12 yrs. and I parted ways a month ago due to things she said to me about my children. That is a different story entirely let's just say she really crossed "the line". Anyway I am the mommma to two beautiful babies and have a husband who works 6 days a week long hours who feels that I should just snap out of this becuase I have no reason to be depressed! I have a horrible history of abuse, hospital stays, etc... I feel like I can't hang on much longer~My therapist is out of town for the next 3 weeks. So I don't even have her and I feel abandoned in some ways. I promised myself that today would be different~I would do all those little odd jobs around the house, do some sewing which I love to do but once again I let the day go by. Here I sit tired as hell knowing that I feel like a robot I need to get my kids fed and the oldest off to soccer. Anyway I am rambling!! I don't even know what I am saying other than has anyone ever felt this lonely and alone? How do I make it through another day let alone another 3 weeks? I love my children more than anything but sometimes wonder why I brought them into this scary troublesome world? Sorry for rambling and being so negative.
Posts You May Be Interested In