You know when I was taking care of my mother before her death in 2004 I was amazed at how fearful of life she had become. Her health was very poor and her husband was dying from colon cancer, but this poor woman who had always been so strong in her youth was scared now of every noise. She was afraid of falling, of living on a fixed income, losing her husband, losing her indepence, etc. and it was so overwhelming sad to see her reduced to this depression/state of fear. I find now that as I age I fear the same things...falling, being in poor health and living alone. What happens if I fall/get sick/etc and since I live alone with no one to miss me I know that they'll find me dead with the animals eating me. I worried about who will take my animals. I worry now about everything. But most of all I don't want to die alone. Does anyone else relate to these fears. I just don't want to be alone anymore. This last year was the worst of my life. After 7 years with someone he left me due to my depression and I just feel so overwhelmed. I can't do alot of what he did in the house and around the yard, but I can't afford to hire anyone. I also fear having people know that I live alone. Maybe they'll come back to rob me. I'm just getting too old I quess and depression adds to all of this. I'm I just a crazy old cat lady?
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