ok....this is part of what causes me to be depressed so much. It may sound dumb to some of yall but im sure there are some people out there that know what i am talking about. Almost anytime you go anywhere, everytime you turn around, you see happy couples. I have not been in a relationship in about a year but i really have never been in a serious relationship. I have never held a guys hand, never had my first kiss, nothing, and i am almost 19. This may sound stupid but my whole intire live i have grown up with all my friends having boyfriends all the time and talking about how happy they are, their frist kiss, everything and anything, my sister is always having guys over or going out with guys. She is 2 years younger than me and has way more experiance than me. She has had like a million relationships along with all my friends. So, this causes me to stay home alone most of the time because when i go out with my friends their b.fs are always around and i get no time. I love hanging out with my cousin, she is married, buthe husband is always at work, so she is the one I am always with, because she shows me so much support and trys so hard to find a guy for me, but she has had no luck, because no one is good enough, if she finds someone, then her husband says he is not good enough for me so its an ongoing cycle that doesnt get me anywhere. Yea yea you maybe thinking y dont i do it on my own well...i am a very shy person, i do not see my self attrative, so therefore y would i try when i know it will just fail like all the other times....so i dont know what to do...if anyone has any advice please help. Thanks
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