Every morning when I wake up I feel like I want to die. This lasts all day, every day ever since the day i was born. I'm always alone. i've already tried to kill myself 2 times, but apparently taking 2 whole bottles of anti-depressants doesn't kill you, or me at least. I'm not even sure why I'm talking about this, I don't expect to ever get better, I will probably end up jumping off my 12th story balcony. I just thought I would let everybody know that I feel like shit 24/7. But it's not like it matters. I guess some people are just meant to live, and others are meant to be miserable their entire life with no escape. I think i'm going to stop eating, and probably quit my job and get evicted and end up starving to death on the streets, or maybe I'll take the 2 bottles of Seroquel and the two bottles of Efexxor in my medicine cabinet. Who knows how this night will end, and who cares.
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