Every day gets harder and harder. I hate to get up in the morning and can't wait to go to sleep at night. I look foreward to taking my sleeping pill to get at least a couple hours of peace. I called a place to try to get counseling, they told me they would check my insurance and get back to me, even though I told them I'm starting to feel desperate. And this came from a "catholic life center" I guess money rules EVERYTHING! Which of course I don't have enough of. I am tired of being alone and lonely, tired of having noone but my kids. I called my sister last night and was almost in tears and she said she couldn't talk because she was depressed that she had to go back to work after a week's vacation....must be nice, I can't even afford a vacation.(she was on her second one) I sometimes wonder what the hell I was thinking when I divorced my ex-husband....sure he cheated & did drugs, I was miserable then, but I'm still miserable, with less money... My kids see him for maybe a full 4 days a month, but how do they pick up on his bad habits so quickly???
I give up!
I give up!
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