Good that your venting but what your thinking wont solve it. It isnt the answer.

Hi lilyhope

loosing your job after 23 years would make me very confussed and depressed. I am sorry that happened to you.

I think it would make anyone feel volunerable and confused. Please hang in there we are here for you.

I totally understand what you are going through, I'm having a really rough time right now and those thoughts go through my mind constantly. But I try to tell myself that all things will pass and that I am worth living. You ARE worth living and you would be causing an abundance of life long pain to your friends and family if you ended your life. Please go see your doctor and tell him/her what is going on, even if it takes all the energy you have just to get there.I'm so sorry to hear about your job, and I too have money issues. You have been though ALOT of changes, but you will come out of this is one piece if you make yourself a priority. Hope this helps....chin up..

i think that by saying that you were venting you probably understand that suicide is not the answer.
keep writing like that, on here and in your journal
i might make you feel better and keep you from actually harming yourself

I'm glad you wrote about it, rather than acting on it. Keep journalling and try to remain open-minded. There is a solution down the road, and we're all here to help you through it.
xoxo

That won't solve it, it's hard i know but it will get better. I didn't think so but it did.

dun no what to say but hope sum1 sees this.

I am really sorry to hear about your job loss. I live in Michigan, I see it happening all the time in our crappy economy. I also understand how it is to just be making ends meet, and sometimes not even making it to that! Just remember that we are all feeling down in the dumps on here, and that we have all been thinking the same thing as you at one time or another. When all else fails, talk to us. WE CARE!!! Take care and try to keep your head up.

Sleep lots, recharge, and kep going, as cray as it is!

One of the quotes on the bottom of the chat page reads

"when you get to the end or your rope, tie a knot, and hold on"

Can't remember who said it but he was a very clever man.
xxx

Lilyhope,
I understand the pains.
I was laid off in May after 5.5 years with the company.
Working again, but at an hourly wage worth half what I was making.
And of course my bills didn't feel like reducing themselves so...week to week it's a game of dodge the call, mail the check, pray I can make it to payday without bouncing more than two checks.
in the meantime, my wife and i are splitting up, i'm selling the house, buying a new, smaller place.
i count every day how many pills i have left, knowing my health insurance doesn't kick in until the firt of the year at which time i'll be able to afford renewing my prescriptions.
SHIT.
it all wears at you.
Presses down on you.
just want to escape it all - think about a handful of ambient and some coconut rum, and then a nice long nap.
no more worries. no more fears. no more stress.
just sleep.
peaceful, dreamless sleep.

but it's not the answer. or rather, it's not a good answer.
we have to measure ourselves by the courage it takes to gdet through the days.
we have to think, as hard as it is, about those times when things turn around.
i know how hard it is to be positive, i know how hard it is to have faith, to be hopeful.
we all do.
but we've made it this far you and i, and think it would be nice to see how it all ends.
i like to think there is a lot of good stuff in store for me.
there's my son to watch grow up.
there are my parents to appreciate more and more as people.
there's my brother. my niece.
that new cactus that's supposed to bloom crazy pretty in the spring.

please be strong enough to remember the things that have brought you this far.
and please remember there are people who share your pain.
and are willing to take a little bit on themselves to help you through the low points.

Please try to hang in there; just take one day at a time. Keep reaching out and don't give up yet.

i am 14 and i might not be the best person to help you but i do understand about ending it i have thought about it every day of my life since i was 10 and even tryed it once but couldn't do it because i thought about my wonderful father and new he couldn't handle it so i put down the bottle of pills i was going to pour down my throat and went into his room while balling my eyes out and kissed him on the cheek and said i love you then went to my room and prayed to god which i never do and asked him to help me with my depression and the next day i walked outside and found a buisness card for bcps which is a theripist office and have been going there ever since i hope this helps you out becaus to this day i have never regreted that decision and have never told anyone

Just losing a job you have held that long can cause depression to flare. We have to greive all of our losses, including jobs. I am sorry you are feeling low, I have been there too. I lost my identity, it was wrapped up in a job, or school. I know who I can not be any longer. But the hard part is fiquring out who I can be. me. Hang in there, it does get better.

I can't imagine losing my job after such a long time. *hugs* hang in there... please

I agree with zazasan that losing a job held that long would cause almost anyone,naturally,deep depression.Just the way we n eed to take time to grieve for the loss of a person from our lives, we need to take time to mourn the loss of a job that has been a central part of our survival and idenity.If you are impatient w/ yorself to start feeling "normal,like yourself" again or to overcome your depression quickly, you will probably only become more depressed,and angry w/ yourself.Sounds like that job made a great deal to you,and if we don't "fully"mourn things we lose,they will continue to daunt us in our futures. You mention also your fear of being alone:maybe your job hid some of that loneliness from you?This,too,needs to be confronted,and changed.It is so,so hard at first,to let go of something so important to us,and I think you should see a therapist about this.You are in the midst of a large change in your life, and you need to know that,while staying yourself, you can make those changes which will bridge you to the next,and still fulfilling,chapter of your life.