I feel so empty. I work hard to keep my life going, knowing I will work through this, but it seems like a hopeless cause, I seem to put more effort into living up to my parents expectations of "the good kid". I'm smart, and I know it. I get good grades, participate in extra-curricular activities, and am extremely active within my church. But as I do all of this, I'm drowning. I don't have any "real" friends. I hang out with people, but it's more of just that, hanging out, I know stuff about them, but they don't know me. None of them know me, or seem to care to know me on a deeper level. I'm a sophomore, and haven't gone to a party of any kind, birthday, graduation, etc. I feel like a reject. I just want friends who know me. I want to feel alive. I don't really know what to expect anymore. It's a chore to do anything, even talking to the one true friend I do have is almost like a chore. I can't sleep anymore, what should I do?
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