I've never been seriously depressed before. I can't see the bright side of things, I feel like everything is pointless and no one understands me(which is why I feel emotionless towards everyone). It used to be at the end of the day I would be sad that I was lonely. Now I just feel like I'm alone in my thoughts and everything. My back just started to really hurt today and I'm not overweight at all. I think it's the constant stress. I'm just not excited about life anymore. I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere, like life is just passing me by. I feel like I used to thrive off of people for my happiness, I'd try to please them. I'm good at making other people happy, hearing that I'm doing a good job in something. I'm not looking for that anymore, I want to be able to be happy with myself but I don't know how. I think it's easier for me to focus on someone else's life and try to improve theirs than trying to fix mine. I'm not happy with my life. I'm an only child, still live at home, haven't had a job in 2 months but I'll have one this thursday, I hardly have any money, and I'm questioning my college major. I'm thinking about changing it. My mom doesn't believe in depression. At least not for me, she thinks that my life is too good to be depressed about, so I just hide it from her. Her saying that doesn't change anything for me. I feel apathetic towards everything, I don't see the point in getting excited about anything. I've lose my love for life. What should I do?
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