Yes, ppl, I'm drunk. I'm not an alcoholic or anything, but I think recent events have made me nervous and I'm just escaping them. Anyway, if you want to know more you can read my journal....only most of it is set to friends. No offense!!

I've just become very humbled recently is all. I always thought of myself as a ready-for-anything person. I could handle the world all by myself. But now I'm deeply in debt and having to rely on relatives. I'm spending my last week in an apartment I've rented for 3 years. I've had many before it, but this my my first that was all mine. I know things will be fine, but I'm driving myself up the wall anyway. I'm not sure if it's out of shame or guilt or what. I just know that I am out of sake and that makes me sad. Sake is my favorite booze, it hits hard and leaves almost no hangover. I'll probably drink something I'll regret in the morning, but at least I don't have to work. I'm also smoking like a chimney. Thank you, Firefox for spell check, where would I be without you?

Anyway, I'm just ranting. I'm not doing anything dangerous or looking for attention. I just wanted to put this someplace. Maybe my journal would've been better, but hell, I've written alot here already. I feel like when I leave this place I will also leave my pride. I will also miss my special needs cat. He's retarded as all hell, but so lovey. He always cheers me up. I can visit him at my sis's, but it's not quite the same, y'know?? I mean, hell, he gives kisses like a dog. You can't not love that. My other "normal" cat will come with me. I'm sure she'll dance on me while I try to sleep and puke on things as per normal.

Okay, I have no idea where I'm going with this, but I'm glad to have written it down. Do with it what you will.