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Yes, ppl, I'm drunk. I'm not an alcoholic or anything, but I think recent events have made me nervous and I'm just escaping them. Anyway, if you want to know more you can read my journal....only most of it is set to friends. No offense!!
I've just become very humbled recently is all. I always thought of myself as a ready-for-anything person. I could handle the world all by myself. But now I'm deeply in debt and having to rely on relatives. I'm spending my last week in an apartment I've rented for 3 years. I've had many before it, but this my my first that was all mine. I know things will be fine, but I'm driving myself up the wall anyway. I'm not sure if it's out of shame or guilt or what. I just know that I am out of sake and that makes me sad. Sake is my favorite booze, it hits hard and leaves almost no hangover. I'll probably drink something I'll regret in the morning, but at least I don't have to work. I'm also smoking like a chimney. Thank you, Firefox for spell check, where would I be without you?
Anyway, I'm just ranting. I'm not doing anything dangerous or looking for attention. I just wanted to put this someplace. Maybe my journal would've been better, but hell, I've written alot here already. I feel like when I leave this place I will also leave my pride. I will also miss my special needs cat. He's retarded as all hell, but so lovey. He always cheers me up. I can visit him at my sis's, but it's not quite the same, y'know?? I mean, hell, he gives kisses like a dog. You can't not love that. My other "normal" cat will come with me. I'm sure she'll dance on me while I try to sleep and puke on things as per normal.
Okay, I have no idea where I'm going with this, but I'm glad to have written it down. Do with it what you will.
I've just become very humbled recently is all. I always thought of myself as a ready-for-anything person. I could handle the world all by myself. But now I'm deeply in debt and having to rely on relatives. I'm spending my last week in an apartment I've rented for 3 years. I've had many before it, but this my my first that was all mine. I know things will be fine, but I'm driving myself up the wall anyway. I'm not sure if it's out of shame or guilt or what. I just know that I am out of sake and that makes me sad. Sake is my favorite booze, it hits hard and leaves almost no hangover. I'll probably drink something I'll regret in the morning, but at least I don't have to work. I'm also smoking like a chimney. Thank you, Firefox for spell check, where would I be without you?
Anyway, I'm just ranting. I'm not doing anything dangerous or looking for attention. I just wanted to put this someplace. Maybe my journal would've been better, but hell, I've written alot here already. I feel like when I leave this place I will also leave my pride. I will also miss my special needs cat. He's retarded as all hell, but so lovey. He always cheers me up. I can visit him at my sis's, but it's not quite the same, y'know?? I mean, hell, he gives kisses like a dog. You can't not love that. My other "normal" cat will come with me. I'm sure she'll dance on me while I try to sleep and puke on things as per normal.
Okay, I have no idea where I'm going with this, but I'm glad to have written it down. Do with it what you will.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I also got drunk last night & had an argument with my hubby & now this morning im full ov guilt. Life sucks but ive got no-one 2 blame for the state ov my finances, sorry i needed 2 rant 2 :( BIG HUGZZZZZ.
Just try to work on whatever is wrong my darling.
A good two glasses of wine helps at night. I don't really drink much, though. My father uses alcohol to cure his problems, and so I don't want the same to happen to me.
You and I are in the same boat. We have talked about it. Why wasnt I invited over for drinks? The idea of getting drunk has been on my mind for days. But, cant afford to even do that.lol. Keep your chin up girl. Maybe the next place you get will hold more great memories for you. You are being thought of and prayed for now and until things are better.