so, in this drunk stupor the other night, I messaged an old friend/fling. we used to be so close. one day he just disappeared and then there was a fury of drama afterwards between myself and another friend of his because of the whole situation. about a month after he stopped talking to me, i had a miscarriage.. and i wasn't even aware i was pregnant. i had no plans on telling him.. but i got into it with his friend who is also his roomate and it just came out to her. i sent him and email and i told him about what happened.. and never once, not to this day has he acknowledged it. because of this, i have been carrying around a lot of anger/resentment and sadness about it all for the last 4 months or so. i came home friday night, i was wasted and i sent him this message.. and all it says is.. thanks for ruining my life. ive gone out of my way to keep myself out of his life, i deleted my original myspace and made a new one with a different email and without my name attached to it, i stopped blogging on xanga. now ive given up my annonyminity.. and i cant unsend it. im obsessed with watching it now, to see if hes read it. god im an idiot. sorry about my pathetic whining.
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