I spent the day in th ER with my son. I sat there for 6 hours I had no one to call an I hate that feeling of being helpless. It is times like this that I feel like I can't take it any more. I believe in God but I can't figure out why so much is being dished my way. I never seem to have a break there seems to be some crisis day after day. I have started taking sleeping pills again because I can't sleep without them and because life is easier when I am asleep. I stop answering my phone and hate getting the mail because I know there is bad news in it. How am I suppose to get through this if there is never a chance for me to come up for air. Does anyone else feel like they are drowning.
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