Oh GEEZ....Well, I had two appointments today..the first with the pain management doc....THANK GOD....cuz I barely felt my head hurting anymore!!! Whew I thought...5 long painful days OVER! That was the good one! Then the next...the spine clinic, about the dislocated vertebrae in my neck. I am scared to death now!!!! Evidentially....with C3 & C4 so bad now they are forcing C5 to move out of line as well....almost to dislocated like the other two. The initial decision they have made is neck surgery! Oh Lord am I frightened! I was feeling so much better after the first doc, actually happy. So happy to be close to pain free! Now I am terrified, depressed and that darn headache is coming back! No wonder I have been having so many really bad headaches...the muscles in my neck shoulders and back are trying to compensate for the vertebrae movement! OMG am I frightened...I have never had surgery. Oh, wait I take that back...lol...as I was crying like a baby in the doc's office telling him that...he says "yes you have, you had your tonsils removed"..I laughed and told him...uh yeah when i was 5 years old! Then he said, "and you have had a cyst taken off your wrist" ....lol I told him...in day surgery! For crying out loud...neither of which compare to neck surgery! I have visions of being in one of those head braces with it screwed into my skull! He said if I do not have the surgery...my spinal cord will eventually be being cut into by the vertebrae! Lord have mercy on my soul!....Please folks pray for me....I hate to ask ....there are so many others here in greater need...so just if you think about it, drop a line to the "Man upstairs" on my behalf? Much love to all and as always God bless
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