I am feeling down this morning. Every year around the holidays I get anxiety. Roomie will probably go to his relatives and I will order in and stay home as I have for for the last couple of years.
Thanksgiving hasn't been the same now for years and I just stopped stopped being around people at the holidays.
I was suppose to be married by now celebrating with my husband but that all.went sideways. I know it was a blessing as he was cheating on me.
I cant get close to people. Roomie confuses me. I pull back from him because he confuses me. I'm afraid I will pull back and saty back. Its safer that way. Especially if we have to share this house. We have love for each other but i think it's more of a friendship. It's not romantic. I've stopped saying I love you.
Work is the same. Drs appt 2 weeks away from today. Then surgury scheduled hopefully soon after. Then I can start my late News Resolution list.
i am so tired of the way i feel at any given moment.i am either on the verge of panic or in the middle of a full blown panic attack,or i feel over medicated,fatigued,sleep deprived,apathetic.Flashbacks latch on to my OCD so that the thoughts and images and feelings just loop and loop over and over.i have an appointment with my pyschiatrist/therapist this morning but i just feel too weary for it.i...
I haven't been on here very frequently, but I wanted to share that I recently celebrated 4 years of sobriety on November 16th.I am so grateful for people like the people on here that offer help and advice to each other with no expectations for anything in return...true selflessness. People like you and groups like this saved my life. Life is a gift and every day of sobriety is a...