Well, in the hospital, put myself here, and now they are going to "302" me to a psych ward even after i told them that i would voulentarily commit myself. I Feel like Im trapped. All this stuff is running through my head and I dont know when they are going to clear me medically and send me away because they are doing all these stupid test.. Im scared, I dont know whats going to happen, I know I need help and I want to believe that Im doing the right thing but Im having a really hard time. The only thing that is keeping me sane right now is that fact that I have my laptop and am heavily medicated. Trying to fight the meds because i dont want to go to sleep, and soon Im not even going to have my laptop with me because Im pretty sure they arnt going to let me use it where Im going. This really sucks and I really just dont want to be by myself right now. Im freaking out, Im panicing and couldnt even leave here if i wanted to.
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