well iv not been on here 4 a week,just needed sum space 2 try and get myself 2gether.iv been putting on such a good front 4 my family,and it aint working no more.iv taken a lot of temaxepams and am drinkin 2,i just need 2 block this pain out that is with me all the time.i try 2 sweep it under the carpet 4 a while but that makes it worse.i dont even no if im worth anything.im sick of this torment in my head and in my dreams,its sending me crazy u no.i feel all spaced out and it feels good.iv been introduced 2 cannabis and 2 b honest my partner likes me on it.but i feel guilty as hell smoking it.hes rolling me one right now,but i dont want it.but i dont say no 2 easily.im in a big mess and need out off this big time.im goin 2 carry on takin more pills and beer i think.I WANT OUT OF THIS EVIL WORLD NOW.
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