I am 29 and currently going thru an ugly divorce. I have 2 kids ages 7 and 3. I want to work on things with my marriage but my husband doesn't. We were married for 8 years and got in to an argument 3 months ago and he spanked our son way to hard and shoved me. I took out a restraining order on him and due to court getting put off many times he went 7 weeks with out speaking to our kids and now blames me. He says he cant forgive me for taking his life away. I feel the opposite I feel like he took my life away he took our family away. We are both Christians who are seeking Gods answer. God has told me the answer is for us to be together. I am just so lost scared and devastated. I don't want to wait I want to start working now. I don't have a lot of friends and my family is just about fed up with me I feel like. I cry myself to sleep at night. I have a full time job but never get any work done because I cant concentrate. I spend hours praying to die. My kids would be better off everyone involved would and I wouldn't have to hurt anymore. I cant sleep I don't go anywhere I have no friends. My best friends side with my ex. I am left all alone. I pay all the bills with not even any child support. I have absolutely nothing. I keep praying and reading my bible and begging God but still nothing changes. Everyone said go to the dr and get meds so I got put on Prozac and klonopin...I feel the same just sleepy. I am at the end of my rope I do not want to live this life.
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