I feel myself going down the drain again,..I am fighting this with all I have,..This stupid depression is coming back again,..I had to force myself to shower today, and get out of the house to buy food,..but if it gets worse,..I will not be able to do that for much longer,..I can barely clean my apartment,.I do the minimum,..that's it,..I did laundry last night after work,..but that is because I need my clothes for work,..I feel as though I have no life,.I go to work,..I come home and drink,.and then go to sleep,..and do the same thing again the next day,..Weekends,..I do next to nothing,..I isolate myself,..I don't paint anymore,.don't want to see people,..just want to sit home and do nothing,..I feel like such a failure,..and a waste of space,..I feel like just crawling back into bed,.and staying there for the rest of the weekend,..
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