Sounds like you are getting overwhelmed - maybe just take a step back, and a deep breath. Sometimes it can feel like the whole world is against us and all the positive things we do don't mean anything - but they do!! Hang in there hun, crying is OK - it's a way that the body deals with an overload of stress. IMO you need to look after you first and formost. Good luck.

That's the bad thing about anxiety it comes and goes. Right now it's here so you have to do every thing you can to ease it. Talk with someone, do slow breathing and try not to think about things that you have no control over. It will get better. Hugs M

You and I sound a lot alike. I'm sorry you are having a hard time.

You know, mothers mean well, but they aren't always right and frequently don't know what is best for their children. Your family should be supportive of you doing things like this site if it makes you feel better. Including paying for a therapist if YOU want to do it.

I have one grandparent left now and still haven't gotten over the other three passing away. (Four if you count my husband's grandmother who was like my own.) It's terribly hard to face that part of life sometimes. Go see her as much as you can because you'll probably wish later that you did, even though it's hard to see her going downhill.

I hope things start looking up. There's a lot of people here who care. I think it's a good place.

I get to go pick up my little son now at school and pretend like everything is OK when I just feel like crying and going back to bed.

yeah break this all down and look at it sensibly. so your mum is a bit against the idea of you having ADD/ADHD. what mum wouldnt be upset? shell be feeling guilty you just gotta take her comment with a pinch of salt. mums always have really weird ways of rationalising things, dont worry. my mum thinks im gay because i want to annoy her. haha. i wish it was that simple! see mums are a pest. and yeah so what if your parents have a wee argument, they sort it out and hopefully it will get you help which is just great!

you got us to talk to, you dont need your boyfriend right now so dont worry about that.
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Oh god! You sound like me! My grandmother is in a home and last night I got back from the ER she could die at any second. Also my depression hasn't been "stable".

Anyway you want to cheer yourself up... I pray on the tough issues. I know I may sound like a bible thumping weirdo, but it helps. You can't save Grandma, but you can be there for her. Pray for her and the strength to help her and the courage to face the emotions and challenges.

As for your ADHD, I don't know how old you are.. but in the past they didn't screen ADHD as vigorusly like they do now so your parents should feel bad.

As for your folks spazzing.... don't take it personally, but your parents will spazz out... it's what they do unfortunately. If your mother wants to say you don't have ADHD, how does she know?? See a doctor, they can help you, I've seen adults with ADHD and their meds work. If your Dad won't spring for a therapist, atleast he will let you see a doc and you can ask the doc to test you for ADHD.

I want to cheer you up, but I don't want to lie to you. As for your BF, help him when you are on stable. I tried to help someone when I was in my late teens and I wanted to keep them from hurting themselves.. turns out it was a big mistake. First fix yourself so you can have the strength to offer your help to your bf.

Aw, SO SORRY, but YOU CAN COPE! being overwhelmed is so tough, would some distractions help? a funny movie or video? a good book? exsercize?

wow, that is alot to deal with at one time, I think distraction is good for now and maybe when you feel a little better just try to work on one thing at time, one little step at a time will get you there