Im going to be seeking a therapist soon but am doubtful of therapy in general. I feel that Ill just try to undermine the therapist in any way and put up walls. Maybe not the best attitude, but I feel defensive even at the thought of going in for help. I always view other people as evil, vile, nasty beings who lie and have hidden intentions/motives. Im not sure if this is a part of depression, but my cynical thoughts invade my mind constantly. When I visited the church last week, all I could think of is the pastor being a hypocrite, a pervert, and a liar. I pictured him in all types of settings and wondered how he really acts when not putting up a disguise in church. I always have such invading thoughts because I believe human nature is evil and that no one is to be trusted. I usually dislike people even before meeting them since I become convinced that they are dangerous. And yet I have to be able to survive in this existence,,, I wont be able to with such a horrible outlook. Its extremely daunting but has become second nature to me.
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