having been depressed for 12 yrs now i just wanted to know how other people deal with "fighting" with yourself on a daily basis. by this i mean managing suicidal thoughts and balancing them with the need to be with your family children etc. i feel guilty because i really dont want to be here and yet i do so much because of my daughter. at the moment i live my life through my daughter and tend to hide behind her she is everything to me my only reason to smile and yet im plagued by these dark thoughts!its a long and very tiring battle but one i hope to win!!
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