My 28 year old son came home to live with me in September last year. He suffers from depression and we were both suffering from the loss of his brother earlier in the year. I was happy to have company but I would never have asked him to come home for my sake EVER. Anyway so I took him around to the various specialists etc. and he slowly started to improve and seems to be O.K. now. Ive been more or less completely supporting him emotionally and financially all this time. Hes been away on holiday the last two weeks. Ive been withdrawing from Wellbrutin this last week and have been having a pretty rough time of it. I told him on the phone and he knows Im having trouble. So he phones this morning (the day he was due back) to say that hes staying for another night. I dont want to rain on his parade but I really need some company and help and told him so. He pretty much brushed me off with an Oh well youll be alright, at least it wont be for ever. In other words Im partying and have no intention of interrupting my plans. Im feeling dreadful emotionally and now Im pissed as hell as well. This isnt a small child but a grown man. Im aware that some of what Im feeling is because of the withdrawal but my dearest wish at the moment is to tell him to bloody stay where he is and let his friends support him. I dont want to say anything Ill regret but I think I may have to sit on my hands for the rest of the day to stop me using the phone. Im so hurt at his response Im actually scared of my reactions tomorrow when he finally returns. I cant stop crying and thats making me even angrier. I know there isnt an answer to this I just needed to tell someone. Thanks for reading it. L.
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