So I just got a good job, about to buy my 1st car, dating a good woman. By all accounts, I should be happy. But when the door closes and nobody's around I feel so empty. Like there is something missing. There are tears building up behind my eyes but I can't let them go. And I just don't know where they are coming from. And I can't talk to anyone, my family doesn't get me and I can't go to my friends because sometimes I feel that they're stuck behind some alpha male no emotions facade. And then I get mad at myself for thinking that I can't turn to them, so I pretend all day that nothing is wrong and everything is ok. Every time I step outside my door, I put on this smile, this persona that everything is okay. I keep it up when I'm at work; with my friends; when I'm home. But as soon as that door closes and I'm alone, it comes crashing down. I want to get better, but I don't know where to start and what's wrong.
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