I didn't think that after last night, that it was possible to feel any worse! Damn was I hella WRONG!!!! Oh well! Just so damn down, some of it, I know why I am down, but at the same time I also don't know why I am this down! Hell i should be happy, I only have 10 more days left of school, but I can't be happy right now, my Meds are not helping, usually when I go to my Therspist, I walk out of there, feeling worse than I did when i walked in there! It just makes me really wonder, why I bother trying, why get up, why breathe why all of it. Suicide would be great for someone in my shoes, but I know what suicide does to someone! I know the hurt, the pain, the questions, and I really don't want to put the people I care about through that, but at the same time, I don't know what else I can do, to make this pain, this hurt, all of this go away, I try talking, and they leave, I try crying, doesn't help, I try keeping busy, can't do that, I try it all, and yet nothing works! It is so damn frustrating!
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