I don't know what I'm going to do today. I can't concentrate on work. All I can think about is how I want to quit everything. I want to quit my job, I want to quit having hope that I can get a wonderful guy back, I want to quit having any responsibility what-so-ever. I've been trying so hard, and yet I still have bad days. What gives? Doesn't hard work mean anything when it comes to depression? I had one good week this month since my depression hit. It was wonderful. But now, it's back to the point where one day I'm okay and the next day I'm horrible. I can't take this roller coaster anymore. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere with all the work I've done. So, of course, that's even more depressing!!! I figured if I exercised, ate better, got therapy, and kept myself busy, that'd I'd feel better. HA! Nothing seems to help today. I have no hope :( Why?
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