I am wondering if I am depressed or something else like just lazy, tired or just plain throwing myself a pity party. I feel great some days, and could care less about the day others, although, I always get up take a shower and get at least the basic necessities done. I have changed my meds and lowered my adderall to 10mg and got on wellbutrin 400mg due to wanting to ween myself off of adderall which is a highly addictive drug that I have been on for some time now. I also expressed to my psychiatrist that I am feeling less drive and motivation than before. He said it was probably due to our recent move and I suspect my husbands affair. However, we moved 1 year ago and my husbands affair was 1 1/2 years ago and I don't feel any relief. I am or was a very driven, focused, determined strong willed person until this crap began and I just want to have at least some of that spirit back. I feel bored and purposeless. not hopeless, just without purpose or something...anyone have any input?
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