I just don't think the mirtazipine they are giving me is helping my depression at all. Has anyone else had experience with this drug? To me the fight against this is worse than the idea of just giving up on everything I'm doing.
Tired of needing to wake up terrified multiple times throughout the night. I don't dare think about it and if I do the tide of sadness just floods back in with a vengeance.
Only months to go till this tunnel moves me briefly into the light and then plunges me back into the hated darkness and constant anxiety and worry. No success is only heaping more depression on a pile that buries origins of it even deeper. Fear of this is it, where I am relegated to remain unsure of anything beyond sadness.