I have finally hit the lows again. I was expecting this to come. I have been off of my meds for a month now. Off of them, because I changed my old doc to see a new one. I made the new appt. signed for the medical records transfer and once the form was recieved by my old doctor he cancelled my last refill on my meds. To make matters worse..this is the most high stress time in my life. My one son,15 is bipolar. I had to give him my doctor visit for the 20th because our family doctor doesnt feel comfortable giving meds for teen bipolar. He referred me to the psychologist my son is seeing and told me he will work with her. He wont now because he is bipolar and not just depressed. After making tons of calls..the soonest he can be seen to recieve meds is by using the doc visit I had set up for myself. Money and bills are weighing on my mind heavily right now. My husband is laid off from his job and christmas is coming fast and with 4 kids here I am a little stressed. My youngest son,9 was believed to have had a condition called ODD since he was 5 but now we find out that he is ADHD. Evaluated last night and now bipolar is believed to be in him as well. The doc is going to do another evaluation of another form to make sure. She saw how distraught I was last night and said she would. My life with bipolar has really been bad. Up and down, then medicated...blah and down. I know I am in for a bumpy ride with no meds in me. Do you know that this morning I tried doing something on my computer and I got to frustrated with the directions to continue? How sad is that. Sorry this is so long guys but I tend to ramble when I am like this and crying. I could just use a little uplifting right now from my friends to try to get through this rough patch I have hit. I think this is the first woe is me thread I have started here on the boards. I am not used to feeling out of control like this. Usually I try to bring smiles and help others. I just cant today.
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