Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Hiya. I'm new to this and from the UK. I have no idea if this will help me but hey.. gota do something. I've always felt miserable in the winter and been diagnosed with depression twice in my life ( im 37 now ) both during the winter months but this time is different. I have no idea why but I have this overwhelming fear that I am going to die. Not suddenly, but from an ongoing disease or something and the majoruty of the time, it's all I can think about. I'm constantly miserable which is affecting my relationship but I can't snap out of it.I am also at the point where I feel that I want space away from my partner as I feel suffocated by him at the moment but know I will hurt his feelings if I say this to him. There is so much more to it but I am sick of feeling so low. Surely there is more to life than these ups and downs? I have no friends where I live as I moved away over a year ago due to circumstances beyond my control so I can't talk to anyone. I feel lonely but at the same time, want time on my own away from my partner who is lovely and dosnt deserve this but I just don't know how to snap out of it. I don't want to go on tablets... just want normality back. :(
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hey im sorry ur feeling so low. is it the fear of death thats making u unhappy ? btw - if uve been diagnosed with depression in the winter months u probably have seasonal depression (its a real thing i promise lol) which could SLIGHTLY explain y u feel so low now. ive just moved house aswell - its tough when u dont know many people. maybe ur just stressing owt abowt ur relationship cuz of the way ur already feeling - like ur mood is influencing the way u feel abowt everything ? have u thought abowt counselling - there might be a reason y ur so scared of dying. xx
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i am withdrawing from my partner, too. it sucks, but i know that at some point, i will be back to my old self.
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*hugs* toocool has some good advice... seasonal depression is quite real, but therapy might help with the underlining causes to your fears.
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I honestly don't know. There are so many things yet nothing I can say where " Yes.. thats what has caused it" I've had a lot of bad luck throughout my life which dosnt ever seem to get better. The dying thing though... my mum died from emphycema and it runs in my family. im a smoker although I have cut down incredibly and I think I have convinced myself that I have it. If I have got it, I dont want to know. Does that make any sense? I know about S.A.D... but this is more than just miserable. I dont seem to be able to feel "normal" at all.
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If its just in winter it could be SAD - seasonal affective disorder. its worth checking our because there is different treatment for it, like light therapy.
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i think u maybe do have the seasonal thing - it would be worth a trip 2 the dr cuz u can get sun lamps etc 2 help lift ur mood. im so sorry abowt ur mum dying, and tht certainly could explain alot of the fears ! if u cant pinpoint the exact cause of ur depression/fears counselling might be a good idea at least for a while, to see if they can maybe help u figure it owt ?xx
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SAD would give you all the symptoms of depression so it can still be extreme.
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We seem to be repeating, typing the same things at the same time. Great minds and all that.
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ayngel... Im not withdrawing from my partner and I think I need to but I know how much it will hurt him. I split with my kids dad after 15 years of being together 3 years ago and he tried commiting suicide because of it. I can't go through all that again yet I feel like Im suffocating if i dont ge tout of it. I guess i just feel so much pressure all the time. Hes really clingy, even when Im trying to sleep and its giving me sleeping problems because I feel on edge all the time. I read on this somewhere that lack of sleep can cause depression too... maybe thats not helping or maybe im just diagnosing myslef with god knows what.
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i think u should maybe c a dr and explain ur symptoms......let them do the diagnosing n c what they come up with.xx
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Thanks for your replies... its so nice to talk to people, even if it is people I dont know.
Toocool... not knowing anyone is horrible isnt it. I have always had lots of friends but where I live now, the people are really unfriendly. Although i was born in Wales, I was bought up in london and so I have a London accent which stands out here and so people assume I am a Londoner and its very hard to fit in, something I have never come across before.
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Ths sleep thing can be a vicious cycle. I felt the same towards my partner when I was first diagnosed, didnt want him to touch me, avoided him, in the end I had to tell him. I didnt know if I had stopped loving him or whether it was the depression, just no way of knowing once I had explained that, he waited for me, it took 4 months, we kept in touch, i gave him no promises but it worked out. Try explaining to him.
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I will go and see the doctor, but apart from giving me anti depressants I dont think theres an awful lot they can do.
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I will go and see the doctor, but apart from giving me anti depressants I dont think theres an awful lot they can do.
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i can totally empathise. im in england with a scottish accent ! altho i was born in spain ! it sucks that theyre being unfriendly. ppl here r 2 - thats y im on ds so much lol xx
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