Do you get days where no matter you try and do right ,,,you still get it wrong.so depressed at the mo..hubby ill (god that means he is dieing) kids still fighting...and the head ache still stay's....so had enough of all this ,i hoped as i got older things would get easier.if i new was gonna be this hard i would have just given up...i so hate my life and everything about it.i feel i am loosing all control..it's just one bad thing after another!my past is my past but,18 months ago my daughter was sexually abused, but at 13 she fell head over heals in love with him so he took advantage of her for 3 months .well when i found out she was pregnant it all came out ,he was 17 at the time .well nature took it's own course..well i went to the police he was charged and found out he had done before 2 and 1 count of rape...he has served 10 on remand and tomorrow the 9th he is being sentenced, i want to be there but hubby says no...why could i not keep her safe?this is just one of the things.i may have a brain tumour will find out more on the 21st of this month.i am so scared i just keep thinking i could put an end to all this in one swift moment.
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