I'm having a really hard time this year w/ depression and I'm not sure what to do. I'm positive it is clinical/major depression this time and I have been having an episode thats been close to 8-9 months currently. I have a family history of depression and I also am an alcoholic/addict in recovery so I know these have both played a role in this over the years. I think my brain was just waiting to go off and certain events/relationship at the beginning of the year was all it took to trigger it. I've been trying to learn about depression and how long episodes can last or if they ever will go away. I've had this dating all the way back to middle school but this last episode has been severe, very painful year to go through and I'm just wondering if it will ever end. I've come out of minor depressions before just through working out and changing habits but this time I know it is so much different. I've battled through those episodes before but I know that this is the "greatest" episode and the little things are having slim to no effect anymore. Is is possible to get out of this deep w/o medication??? I know this is clinical this time around and I've been in for almost a year now I'm just wondering if it will ever lift after being this long or if medication is my only option now? Should I take meds if it will hopefully be ending soon? I've been trying to avoid it but it just seems like this is going to be permanent. Any advice or suggestions for me?? I would greatly appreciate it.
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