I've decided that I hate people. I've always been a people person. In social situations I usually make friends easily. I've always been the person that people come to for support,sympathy, and a shoulder to cry on. But you know what happens when the tables are turned? When I need comfort or understanding? I get negativity, accusations and the always standard "Just get over it and be happy". Even the online community usually tosses me aside and looks at me with disdain, wondering why I can't just see the silver lining that doesn't exist. It's as if people think that depression is caused by selfishness. They tell me to stop thinking about myself for once. Quit whining and just get past it. I'm not going to open myself up or trust anybody ever again. I'm not going to put myself out there, over and over, to be kicked, stomped on, rejected, and betrayed. I will learn to deal on my own. I will learn to be alone.
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