Had a bad start to the day after waking up at 3am and not being able to get back over to sleep (so much for the replacement sleeping pills which were supposed to be so strong). I lay awake for the next 4 hours thinking about having to go to that damn place. Eventually got up from a pool of sweat (my body temperature goes haywire when I have anxiety). Got a shower but still had 40 mins before I needed to leave for work. And whadaya know! All of a suddern I could sleep for England. Couldn't keep my eyes open while watching breakfast telly. Eventually dragged myself to work only to walk straight into my boss who started giving me grief about stuff I have no control over. Then into a series of looooong boooooring meetings where keeping awake because the only concern....which brings us to NOW. Just an hour to go and I'm outta here. This morning I was so close to walking out of the place. I guess it's right what they say. Just take it one day at a time. If there's anything I can do today that will make tomorrow easier I will do, but I wont worry about tomorrow.....who am I kidding
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