This is my first post that I've ever made on this site. I just joined and am really struggling with my life. My dad died of a massive heart attack just a little over 5 months ago at the age of 61. There was still so much that I wanted to do with him, and learn from him. In my life, there have been moments of people turning their backs on me and experiencing betrayal, but never anywhere as close to the point of where I am now in my life. Pretty much all of my friends have turned their backs on me. One of them in particular has been more selfish then anyone I have ever met, and I've come across some really self-centered people in my time. Through this whole experience of loosing my dad, I hurt every day. I miss him so much, I can't even explain it in words and through it all, I have lost so many people that have claimed to be my friends for years. It's the most unbelievable wake up call that I've ever had. Never had I thought that in my lifetime, I would be witness to such abandonment and selfish acts. My relationship with my dad was growing and developing for the first time in a long time. He was a kind and passionate man who had always loved God. Brothers and sisters you would have had to meet him for yourselves in order to understand how wonderful he was. Now that he's gone and so many people have chosen to not be here for me, I am desperately seeking people that can help me with my struggles. Thank you in advance for reading and taking it into consideration.
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